Dear Mr. X,
I am finished with being sad and trying to figure out what I did wrong and how I could have "fixed" things. You see, I tried to "fix" things years ago. I tried. You didn't. I'm done. I came to this conclusion a long time ago and made it official three months ago. So why am I still upset & sad? I don't know. I wish I did. It would help me to move on.
I do know that its not me who is defective-as I had originally thought. Sure, I make mistakes and I'm far from perfect. However, I admit when I'm wrong...and I try to improve myself. Not only did you deceive, lie to and betray me; but you also did the same thing to your mother. You said you were sorry but continued your behavior-so clearly you are not. I am here and will get over it. Your mom is not. She is gone and you cannot apologize to her in person. You have to live with that. I'm not trying to make you feel bad. I'm trying to show you-as I have tried for years-that YOUR actions and words are like a razor. You may not believe me but trust me, other people have felt your wrath. You used to say that you've always had an affinity for women...probably because you were raised by a single mother, you say. Well Mr. X, you have a shitty way of showing it. The ones you have hurt the deepest are the women in your life that you claim to love the most. Your daughters, your mother and myself for 10 years. You have to live with this.
I do know that its not me who is defective-as I had originally thought. Sure, I make mistakes and I'm far from perfect. However, I admit when I'm wrong...and I try to improve myself. Not only did you deceive, lie to and betray me; but you also did the same thing to your mother. You said you were sorry but continued your behavior-so clearly you are not. I am here and will get over it. Your mom is not. She is gone and you cannot apologize to her in person. You have to live with that. I'm not trying to make you feel bad. I'm trying to show you-as I have tried for years-that YOUR actions and words are like a razor. You may not believe me but trust me, other people have felt your wrath. You used to say that you've always had an affinity for women...probably because you were raised by a single mother, you say. Well Mr. X, you have a shitty way of showing it. The ones you have hurt the deepest are the women in your life that you claim to love the most. Your daughters, your mother and myself for 10 years. You have to live with this.
Your MO seems to be that when you have a mess of things and no longer want to deal with things, you throw it away and start fresh. Your choice of a new subject is quite peculiar. I almost want to stick around to see the reaction from your family. Its probably a good thing that your mom is not here to see this. Although, I think she suspected something judging by her comments to me before she passed. Do you not realize that you and your new minion have become what YOU used to crack jokes about? Hmm, how ironic is that...considering my family are the ones from WV? Sure, they may be stupid hillbillies, but they were smart enough to mate up with folks who are not blood-relatives.
There's much more than could be said on my part. I'm not going to sit here and point fingers, though. Know why? Because when I do that, there's three fingers pointing back at me. Like I said, I contributed to things falling apart and I acknowledge this. I learn from my mistakes.
There's much more than could be said on my part. I'm not going to sit here and point fingers, though. Know why? Because when I do that, there's three fingers pointing back at me. Like I said, I contributed to things falling apart and I acknowledge this. I learn from my mistakes.
That's the difference between you and I.
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